I Still Can’t Get over Everything! The Pain, The Tears, The Memories, Everything that should have Faded with Time….
A friend asked me yesterday…..”fher bakit hindi ka pa din makapag-move on? Does that mean you still love that someone who changed every single thing there in your life?” Honestly, napaisip ako…Bakit nga ba? Para ito dun sa mga taong pinipilit ibaon sa limot ang past…
Bakit kaya after a month of breakup, we’re still longing for that someone? Bakit kaya kahit iba na iyong buhay natin, we’re still trapped in those bittersweet memories, those moments which we wished to have lasted forever, those days which we never wanted to end? How sad ng buhay…after giving up so much to that someone, after loving that person so much, tayo pa iyong naiiwang umiiyak, nasasaktan…and then, keeping on asking ourselves, “what happened? what have i done wrong?” Di ba ang hirap sagutin nung mga what if ’s at could have’s natin? Kasi ang alam lang natin, ang hirap hirap tanggapin na tayo na nga iyong nagmahal ng totoo, tayo pa iyong nawalan. So in the end, ganito tayo, malungkot, always feeling alone, emotional, helpless… Ang hirap mag-pretend but we still do. We even make ourselves believe in so many things which we know are just so untrue…just to feel a little better.
I still can’t get over everything. The pain, the tears, the memories, everything that should have faded with time….everything’s still living here in my ever broken heart….
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